A Reflection: Healing is Not Linear: 10 Months of Growth
What was wrong, what changed, and what I’ve learned...
Firstly, shoutout to @artzmix for their cover art on this piece ❤️
Now for some musings…
Healing is rarely a linear process. It’s messy, cyclical, and often takes us back to places we thought we had left behind. Over the past year, I’ve experienced profound shifts—some painful, some freeing, all necessary. Looking back, I can see what was wrong, what needed to change, and how I’ve stepped into a new version of myself.
The Weight of the Past
There was a time when I felt trapped by my own mind, by patterns I didn’t yet understand. I struggled with feeling like I was too much and not enough at the same time. I second-guessed myself constantly, apologizing for the ways I showed up in the world. I felt like I was navigating life with an invisible weight on my shoulders, uncertain how to lighten the load.
Small Shifts, Big Changes
But growth, I’ve learned, isn’t always about dramatic transformations. It’s about the small moments—the shifts in perspective, the subtle rewiring of how I respond to challenges. Over the last year, I’ve found a deeper sense of self-awareness. I’ve started advocating for myself in ways I never used to. I’ve learned that setting boundaries isn’t about pushing people away but about making space for myself to exist fully. I’ve started to recognize my own worth, not as something I have to prove, but as something inherent.
Letting Go of What Could Have Been
There was a time when I was angry at what I lacked, and I still struggle with this anger sometimes —at the missed signs, the support I didn’t receive, the struggles that felt unnecessary in hindsight. But I’ve realized that healing isn’t about rewriting the past. It’s about learning how to move forward despite it. It’s about holding space for both the grief of what could have been and the gratitude for what is now possible.
Embracing Joy and Moving Forward
A year ago, I was still searching for answers. Making excuses for WHO I AM, instead of defending myself. Now, I am building something new—not just externally, but within myself. I am embracing joy in ways I never did before. I am allowing myself to live my dreams, to step into the life I want without waiting for permission but finally permitting myself to be my own authority.
Growth is not about erasing who I was but becoming who I am meant to be. And for the first time, I truly feel like I am on my way.
If you’re going through this journey, are looking for someone to talk to or have some thoughts, reach out! I’d love to connect.
🧘 Upcoming Yoga Classes – Join Me! 🧘
I’m so excited to invite you to my Sunday Slow Flow Yoga series—a free 6-class community yoga series! This is the perfect opportunity to take time for yourself, reconnect with your body, and move with intention in a welcoming, supportive space.
🗓 Dates: Sundays, March 2nd through April 6th at 11am
📍 Location: Phoenix Rising Meditation and Wellness Center
🧘 Class Style: A gentle, slow flow practice, perfect for all levels
Come for the movement, stay for the connection. Register for the class here: Eventbrite Link
I’d love to see you there!
📚 March Book Club – Let’s Discuss The Vanishing Half! 📚
The THIRD Downtown New Rochelle Book Club meeting is happening! Can you believe it?! If you love great conversations over coffee (and snacks), I’d love for you to join us.
🗓 Date: Saturday, March 30th
🕑 Time: 2:00 - 4:00 PM
📍 Location: Casaroma Café
📖 Book: The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett
Register HERE!
Come for the discussion, stay for the community. Let me know if you’ll be there—I’d love to have you join us!